Knowing of the knowing.

I'm not fussy but I love to see things in order.
I'm not aggressive but I can be unpredictable when provoked.
I'm not a fighter but I hate when people mess with me.
I'm not outspoken but I prefer to be honest.
I'm not romantic but I crave for white roses.
I'm not a trouble-maker but I get mad when people are being selfish.
I'm not popular but I'm glad to have friends around me.
I'm not a poet but I'm disclosing the hallmark of mine.
I'm not perfect, not an extraordinary one;
But I'm grateful with the way I am.

Red tints in her heart.

Tell me if I'm wrong
Tell me if I misbehave
Tell me if I'm a bit sensitive
But don't tell me that you never wrong.

I care about u
You care about me
We do things like all people do
We jump like monkeys
We love the berries
and more
We love those memories.

I need you
Yes I do
But I can't be with you
No matter how hard we both have been through.

Your winks, laughs and smiles
I know that you want me too
Cos you love me more than your tattoo
and my heart will definitely belong to you
and only you.

But
Things have changed
When the wind shifts its way
When the cloud turns to grey
When the rain kisses the cap
When the tears fall on the lap.

Treasure

Am not a winner
Not yet a loser
Still a finder
In possessing a great treasure.

When I say treasure
It is something that I adore
Something that people are looking for
and something that makes you and me together.

However, no one's perfect
Coz nobody gets what they expect
And lots of things can make us regret
As they lie beyond our prospect.

But hey!
Don't look back in anger
And be a loser
Coz all these things will make us stronger
Or even better.

And one fine day
We gonna have the power
To seize the day
To wipe the pain
And embrace the precious treasure.

A Tough Fullstop

It was a day full of fury,
It was a night full of darkness,
It was the time with little hope;
To start moving on, to end at the long road.

Hey! What's with that quote? It's vague! It's senseless. It's such a crap! But, readers, it's MINE!!! No one cares but I care! Ehemm..(Rejuvenated)

Life's getting harder when you start losing your very precious belonging. You know that you gonna lose it, but you act like nothing's going to happen. Everything's in your hands. You're wrong and I'm wrong too. So whats next? Just watch it's being swept by the wind? Kick by an old folk? Huh..Happy? Sad? Frustrated? There's no need to feel that way because a big girl doesn't cry. (Hailing a sword to the air)

Readers. I'm not the type who is good in making decision. I seldomly change my plan, change my idea but rarely change my attitude since I love myself. Hoho.. It would be harder for me to make a decision that involves many people. But, once I've pushed the 'start' button, I won't shut it off. I will just go with the flow. Unfortunately, certain people don't understand me. They think I'm selfish, I'm rude, I'm arrogant.. Am I? Is it hard for you to accept what I've decided?

I'm not talking rubbish here but truly I'm feeling comfortable expressing things that I know, and you people, do not know. Heh, sorry. Let it stay vague and more vague. I feel satisfied. I feel happy but somehow I feel sorry to the people who feel sad or frustrated or even mad due to my decision. I crave for new air, new colours, new rhythm. But why these people won't give me the chance? Why am I still stucked under your rules?

I've never asked much before and I rarely demand things. Still, I think I need something else. I need rooms and spaces so that I can find a "filler" that can fit the place and be happy with me. Either it is long lasting or not, let the future tells. All I want now is your understanding towards the decision that I've made. I'm not evil but I've gone through your 'devilness' a lot. I guess it's more than enough and I should put it to a fullstop.

(Sigh) I know it's imposibble for you to read my crappy thingy but at least, I've reduced my burden - telling things that you would never want to understand, repeating the same things that you would never want to hear.. Who are you heh?

Well readers, please don't regret reading my blurry essay ;p thanks!

:D

New image, new post, new HOPE :D

Remember Your Debts.

Mistakes happen. But, do people change due to the mistakes they have done? I'll let you answer :D

We do things because we want to get the "rewards" That's a normal mentality of a normal human being. However, it hurts when someone takes advantage on you. You are not dumb but you are being too nice to that someone and eventually you will realize that someone has cracked your egg. When the egg cracks, it disseminates a very bad smell and I bet no one will stand near to that egg. And now, to whom are you going to blame? That someone or yourself.?

Basically, not all things happen beyond our expectation. We have the ability to predict what's next but sometimes we just don't care and we take things for granted. In this context,regret has no value.From the very beginning,we should know what's right and what's wrong. Nevertheless, no one is perfect as everyone makes mistake.

Human love challenges and I do! Sometimes, they are willing to risk their own self without considering the consequences that they will be facing. And here will rise another problem which you, yourself, wonder how the problem could occur. You regret but you keep on repeating the mistakes and your debts are getting increased. Are you able to pay all those debts? Or would you just ignore the debts? Remember, debts bring no good to your life. The more you have, the more suffer you will be.

So, don't only think what's good for you, but please be alert with your surroundings too.

p/s: am i talking crap? idk.